“Do not be afraid, but pray and ask God for everything you need, always giving thanks.”
I can’t get to sleep, so I’ve ended up having another wee look through that bundle of music school-y stuff. I’ve just come across a copy of my testimony from my senior soldier enrolment which was, unbelievably, 3 years ago. I make mention to music school a lot in it, and how much it has helped me in my ‘journey’ so far. Which it has, undoubtedly. It’s a strange experience, music school. Don’t get me wrong, it’s strange in a good way. For that one week a year, you’re so cocooned into the music school bubble that you almost feel invincible. By the end of the week, spirits are so high, and faith is generally pretty strong.
One thing I’ve always found overwhelming about it is the way people talk, so openly, about their faith and relationships with God. This is something that always seemed alien to me, and I still find it difficult. I even mentioned in my testimony, how much I love the way so many young people share their experiences and stories about their faith. (I’m aware that may sound a bit eccentric to the ‘outsider’ or ‘non-believer’, but we’re honestly not crazy..)
I’ve had many a great conversation at music school, and last year was no exception to this. I finally admitted both to myself and others, how unhappy I was with the way my life was going, and was given the encouragement and support to actually do something about it. I talked, I cried (a lot, on the Thursday night!), I prayed, and thankfully, things changed. I’m very grateful for the people who God worked through and gave me encouragement and advice that week, and some of them will probably never know just how grateful I am.
The only thing is, after that week ends, reality tends to hit you pretty hard. or it does for me anyway. And, more often than not, spirits die down pretty quickly. Promises you make during the week tend to be broken mere weeks later, and that’s that until you go back the next year. Thankfully friendships seem to last a bit longer than that mind you, and all of my best and closest friends are one’s I’ve met at music school. Here’s to making and strengthening more this year!!
I’m suddenly really excited for this year’s music, or rather ‘summer’ school, given that it’s less than three weeks away. Regardless of what else happens during the week, spending a week with your best friends all in one place, without any interruptions from the outside world is pretty awesome. (even if two of my fav’s aren’t going this year!! 😦 ) And hopefully the hype and excitement of it all can last a bit longer than just that one week this year!!
No doubt there will be a follow up post (or ten!) after it, but until then, I’ll leave the chorus of the song I’ve had on repeat for the past half hour. (and which I’m certain I’ve quoted before…)
“I’m in His hands, I’m in His hands. Whatever the future holds, I’m in His hands. The days I cannot see have all been planned for me; his way is best. You see, I’m in His hands!”