This is me

I’m bored, and got the inspiration from another blog. So this was the result. 40 facts/things you probably won’t even be interested in knowing about me, lol!

1. My name’s Roslyn
2. I’m an only child and stay with my parents
3. I was lucky enough to know all four of my grandparents. I now have two.
4. My Nana was Welsh, so I like to think there’s a little bit of Welsh-ness in me
5. I’ve got 3 cousins. One lives in London, one in Melbourne, and one’s a Merchant seaman out in the ocean somewhere. Safe to say i don’t see them often!
6. I’ve had a very privileged childhood, and have therefore had some fantastic holidays
7. These holidays have resulted in me trying loads of different foods, which is good because…
8. I kind of love food. My fav meals probably aren’t what most other people would choose, and I’m not a fan of eggs or roast dinners, but I do love a good meal
9. I’m allergic to quite a lot of stuff. Peanuts mainly, but also nuts in general, cats, dogs, grass, dust, flowers.. the list goes on.
10. Eating noises drive me crazy. absolutely crazy.
11. I love music. I love that whatever mood you’re in or however you’re feeling, there’s always a song or piece of music to suit the situation.
12. In conjunction with no.11, I’m fairly musical myself. I sing (not particularly well I might add), I play the trumpet/cornet, keyboard, and I’m attempting to teach myself how to play the guitar at the minute. I also want to buy a saxophone at some stage and learn that too.
13. I’m not much of a people person. Sure, I’m friendly enough, but there are way too many social situations that make me uncomfortable
14. I like driving, and passed my test nearly two years ago. And I have a zoomy little blue car.
15. I believe in God, and go to Church
16. I don’t come across as the cheeriest of people, but I do love a good positive quote.
17. I love photography. I’ve got a beautiful big Nikon 5100 camera with some pretty awesome lenses, and I love snapping away with it.
18. I also love photographs. My bedroom is covered in them.
19. My favourite colour is blue. I used to change it all the time when I was little, but it’s settled on blue.
20. Fav TV programme of all time is Friends. A timeless classic.
21. I like to be organised, even though it rarely happens. And I like making lists (like you wouldn’t have guessed that?!)
22. I love cheering people up.. listening to their issues, being there, and just making them smile again makes me happy
22. I have only ever had one real boyfriend, and (cue the soppy music) I definitely chose the best one out there
23. The above boyfriend in question is called Matthew, and we’ve been together nearly 5 years (scary, huh?)
24. Oh, and I’m madly in love with him.
25. I’m not a big fan of exercise, but I sometimes do it anyway..mainly by going to the gym
26. I love reading
27. I don’t like milk. Black tea, dry cereal. No milk in sight.
28. I love learning. that’s what I liked about school/uni… learning new things. Not the social bit like most people, but studying and learning things I didn’t know before. (total geek!!)
29. I’m excited to go back to uni to do just that!
30. I have a bookcase filled with tacky ornaments and souvenirs I’ve collected from around the world. complete with a shelf full of turtles.
31. I hate going to bed, but equally hate getting up in the morning. I am NOT a morning person in any way, shape or form.
32. I’m a little bit too good at shopping and spending money I don’t have.
33. I’ve had three pets.. A goldfish that lasted a week and never got a name, one called Furry that lasted 8 years, and a hamster called Screwball.
34. I’m a little bit in love with the USA, and hope to visit every state at some point in life. So far I’ve done 8. It could take a while!
35. I get way too attached to TV programmes and characters. sometimes I forget it’s not real.
36. I get really irritated by bad grammar. It drives me insane when people use the wrong there/their/they’re or your/you’re, or use double negatives. (Eastenders characters are the worst for this!!!) It really stresses me out! (I now can’t decide if I’ve used the right ‘too’ in no.35!!!)
37. I have an irrational fear of vomit. (even typing the word makes my skin crawl!) I have been know to run, cry, and hide behind music stands/couches whilst people are throwing up near me. I therefore avoid all drunk people for fear they may puke on/near me, and all babies/young children for the same reason. (I’m so hopeless!)
38. my friends are all pretty crazy in their own ways. together they make a pretty cool bunch.
39. I wear glasses and contact lenses.
40. I’m pretty chuffed with life at the minute!

Fulfilled

All that i am, all i can be, all that i have, all that is me.

Accept and use Lord, as you would choose Lord right now today

Take every passion, every skill, take all my dreams and bend them to your will

my all i give Lord for you i’ll live Lord come what may”

 

So as my last post said, I decided to give this writing thing a rest because i’d ran out of decent things to write, and to be honest I got a wee bit freaked out that people would judge me for what I was writing so I thought i’d pack it in. However, i’ve kind of missed it. And i’ve been inspired several times in the past week or so to write, but in particular tonight. (and tbh, who cares what other people think? [well, me… but I like to convince myself that I don’t!!]) Also, this post is going to be a Holy one, so if you’re not into all that, feel free to tune out now 🙂

So the theme of today seems to have been all about the plan for my life, or at least the next chapter in it. Starting with church this morning, where the thing that stuck out for me was a line from a song the songsters (choir) sang, which was something along the lines of

“I surrender my dreams to the plans you have made”

I then came home and spent part of my afternoon staring at my UCAS application. Staring, because i couldn’t bring myself to select the Uni offer i’m going to go for. (I don’t know why…I’ve been decided for weeks which one i’m going for, but officially accepting it makes the whole thing a lot more real! Stay tuned and there may be a follow up post about this later in the week haha!)

Following that, I went to another church service, which was all about whether or not you are ‘fulfilled’, and whether you’re fulfilling God’s plans for your life. It was certainly one of those meetings where you feel like they’re talking directly to you (I both love and hate occasions like that…).

Now these three situations got me thinking a bit, particularly the third one, as one point that was made several times was about opening yourself up to God and his plans, and wholly giving your life to his calling for you. Now, we were encouraged to do this there and then, and to be brutally honest, I really wanted to. I just didn’t know how. I wanted to, because regardless of how confident I am in my faith or not or whether i wanted to open myself to his plans, It seems obvious to me that decisions such as what to do with my life are far too big for me to make on my own. But like I said, i don’t really know how!

People always say you need to ‘listen‘ to what God’s saying to you. Now, i’d like to think listening is one of my stronger personality traits, but listening to God isn’t something i find easy, or particularly know how to do. As i may have mentioned before, I really struggle to believe that it’s ‘God’ talking to me, rather than just me talking to myself in my head. Crazy as that may sound, I struggle with the idea of differentiating between the two. However Jeremiah 29:11 always pops into my head when i’m thinking about stuff like this, and I like the way the Message translation puts it:

 

” I know what I’m doing. I have it all planned out—plans to take care of you, not abandon you, plans to give you the future you hope for.”

This post was pretty open and honest, and I toyed with the idea of keeping it as a draft or just deleting it altogether. But for some reason it was something i wanted to write. Not because I wanted people to read about the weird confusion going on inside my head when it comes to God, but because writing it down helps me straighten it all out a bit. So really it was for my own benefit, no one else’s. Although if anyone does read it, i’d be interested to hear your thoughts on what i’ve said and what i wrote about, and to hear your take on the subject. 

 

“Faith is the assurance of things you have hoped for, the absolute conviction that there are realities you’ve never seen”