seize the day

“life’s a journey, enjoy the ride”

After my recent discovery and fixation with the tv show ‘One Tree Hill’, I looked up a couple of the actresses and discovered that one of them -Bethany Joy Lenz – has a blog, and another – Sophia Bush – used Instagram and twitter a lot. I’ve been reading their various posts and updates, and from an outsider’s perspective, their lives seem pretty perfect. They’re both beautiful, talented, successful, clever, inspirational even, and on top of that they do charity work, and just generally seem to have it all.
It would be, and is, so easy to be jealous of their lives. Not for monetary reasons, but because they’ve had success doing something they adore. They have the opportunities to visit people in less fortunate countries and really make a difference to people’s lives. And when you compare that to the life of a ‘regular’ British shop worker for example, it seems so idealistic. And perhaps it is. It seems as though they’re living their dreams. Yet in reality, achieving even one of our own personal dreams isn’t all that easy.

There are certain things I want to do at some stage in my life.
For example, I want to:
visit every continent
visit every state in the USA
get married
have a child
be really talented at something (I don’t mind what, just something)
make a difference to someone’s life(I.e give blood/organ/charity work in different country/UK)
write a book
learn play the piano

now clearly, some of these are pipe dreams and are extremely naive, and will most probably never happen. But that doesn’t mean that some of them can’t. basically what I’m trying to say is (and i’m talking to myself here as much as anyone else), grab every opportunity you get. live your life to the full, and don’t waste it wishing you were someone else, or had someone else’s life. because chances are, if you live your own life and go after even one of those dreams, then you’ll leave a much bigger impact on this planet than if you sit about moping and being jealous of other people’s success.

As cheesy as it sounds, the world really is your oyster. So do something you love everyday. Remember to smile, and enjoy yourself. Take charge of your life and make it everything you want it to be.

anything other than me

I don’t want to be
Anything other than what I’ve been trying to be lately
All I have to do
Is think of me and I have peace of mind
I’m tired of looking ’round rooms
Wondering what I’ve got to do
Or who I’m supposed to be
I don’t want to be anything other than me

I’m surrounded by liars everywhere I turn
I’m surrounded by imposters everywhere I turn
I’m surrounded by identity crisis everywhere I turn
Am I the only one who noticed?
I can’t be the only one who’s learned!

I don’t want to be
Anything other than what I’ve been trying to be lately
All I have to do
Is think of me and I have peace of mind
I’m tired of looking ’round rooms
Wondering what I’ve got to do
Or who I’m supposed to be
I don’t want to be anything other than me

— Gavin DeGraw —

Being a teenager is never easy. Infact, being human is never easy. we’re constantly being judged and criticised about everything and anything: how we dress, hairstyles, careers, hobbies, actions, opinions, attitudes. You name it, someone will be judging someone on it. Which quite frankly, sucks. Since when did we have the right to bring people down like that? I’ve been on the wrong side of it often enough and it can hurt like hell. It happens everywhere. School, Work, Uni, somewhere as bizarre as the Gym, and even in Church..where everyone is supposed to have a ‘christian attitude.’ I got it a lot in school in particular. I was one of the weird kids who didn’t quite fit in. Yeah i had a few ‘friends’, but I had a lot who weren’t. I got teased quite a lot..mostly just people ‘having a laugh’..but that doesn’t mean it didn’t sometimes hurt. I do remember being so embarrassed once when someone made up a fake love letter to me and stuck it on the door to the to say I was raging..and humiliated!
Anyway I’m not looking for sympathy..I like being me! (well, most of the time!!) But back then, I didn’t. I was a geek, I was never in trouble and never had so much as a punishment exercise, I got good marks in nearly every class, I was In nearly every group the music department ran, I didn’t drink, I went to church (catalyst for teasing for sure!), I was shy, and I was just a pretty socially awkward kid! (nothing’s changed there then, I hear you say!!)
Back then I longed to fit in. I wore more make up, tried to style my hair like the popular kids (I particularly remember a very slicked down pony tail thing in 1st or 2nd year…which looked even more ridiculous on me than anyone else: greased down hair on the top of my head with a massive bush-like pony tail at the back. not a good look!!). I’d wear the same clothes as everyone else (combats and trainers with my uniform ring a bell…), and I tried so hard to act like everyone else, but it never worked. I never quite fitted in.
Back then, this seemed like a disaster, as conformity was key, but with hindsight it was definitely a good thing. The thing is, I was different. Because everyone is different! And that’s the way it’s supposed to be!! Every single person on this planet is unique, and yet we try so hard to be the same and judge each other for being different, when of course that’s exactly how we’re supposed to be!
It’s safe to say I never realised this in my younger teens, but even though I do now, it doesn’t stop me judging others or getting self conscious about being judged myself. And I do, I still worry about what I look like or how much prettier/smarter/funnier/more loved someone else is than me, and always will. However unlike in high school, these moments are short-lived, and most of the time I remember that I’m not meant to be the same..I’m meant to be ME!

I don’t want to be anything other than me

do something you love everyday

do something you love every day

I have this canvas on my bedroom wall full of quirky and inspirational quotes and sayings, one of which is “do something you love everyday”, and so today, I made sure to do just that. my ‘thing’ of choice was taking pictures, as i do indeed love photography. I find it fun, exciting, and I love being able to keep little snapshots of my life, be it capturing exceptional moments of my life, or simply little insignificant objects I fancy taking a picture of.
Oh, and these are a few of my results.






“photography is a means by which we learn to see the ordinary” – David Bailey


“it’s only when you’re tested that you truly discover who you are.
and it’s only when you’re tested that you discover who you can be.
the person you want to be does exist.. somewhere on the other side of hard work, faith, and belief.. and beyond the heartache and fear of what lies ahead”

This quote is from the end of a One Tree Hill episode. Fictional though the show may be, I certainly think there’s a lot of truth in these words. It reminds you that no matter how scared you are of where you are and what your life’s going to be, it will be okay. The person you’re going to and want to be is there..somewhere.

“believe you can, and you’re halfway there”

Theodore Roosevelt

happy days

it’s a wonderful world

It is, right? Think of all the things in your life, and in other people’s lives, that make it that way. Possessions, experiences, people, relationships. Yeah, there’s a lot of crap going on in the world too, but think of all the things that frankly, make your life awesome.
And yet we all moan, SO much. myself in particular. I don’t do it on purpose, sometimes I don’t even realise I’m doing it, but I do. I’m not the most optimistic of people, and I moan and complain a heck of a lot. Yet really, in the grand scheme of things, what have I got to complain about?
Now I’m not going to turn this into a rant about how some of us are so well off compared to children in Africa or people in war zones who have nothing etc. etc., but really, it’s true.
I have everything I could ever want, and yet it’s never enough. I still complain about something or another. And it’s all very well and good saying I’ll make a New Years resolution to change, and to be more happy and more grateful for what i’ve got, rather than focusing on what’s not right. But realistically, chances are not much will change. But that doesn’t men I can’t try, right? I can’t change the hand I’ve been dealt anymore than I can someone else’s, but I can be happy with it and enjoy my life, instead of moaning and complaining. Cos you know what?

life is beautiful