soul searching

I’ve seen the movie ‘Bruce Almighty’ plenty of times, because it’s funny, a bit quirky, and lets face it, Jennifer Aniston is awesome and you can’t beat Morgan Freeman’s voice. It was on tv a few weeks ago and I caught about half of it, and there was a catchy wee song in it that I’d never really noticed before. I quite liked it, so googled a line of the lyrics to find out what it was called. It’s called ‘God-shaped hole’, which, if you’ve seen it, you’ll know fits in with what the film’s about. I bought the song on iTunes and had a read through the lyrics, and decided I liked it even more.

“Every point of view has another angle
And every angle has its merit
But all comes down to faith
Thats the way i see it

You can say that love is not divine and
You can say that life is not eternal
“all we have is now”
But i don’t believe it

There’s a god-shaped hole in all of us
And the restless soul is searching
There’s a god-shaped hole in all of us
And it’s a void only he can fill

Does the world seem gray with empty longing
Wearing every shade of cynical
And do you ever feel that
There is something missing?

There’s a god-shaped hole in all of us
And the restless soul is searching
There’s a god-shaped hole in all of us
And it’s a void only he can fill

That’s my point of view…”

I like that it suggests that God really is there for everyone, and does love everyone. I like the bit in the chorus that says “the restless soul is searching….and it’s a void that only he can fill.” In other words, so many people know there’s something more, and that God’s out there somewhere. And that no matter what they try to convince themselves otherwise, or what they try to fill that hole with, they wont quite feel complete until they accept God. Now, that’s a pretty presumptuous take on it, and maybe even naive, and a lot of people could argue til they’re blue in the face from both sides of it, but i think it’s a nice thought. That God’s there for us all, just, not everyone’s ready or wanting to hear it yet. But when they are, he’ll still be there.
I specifically like the way it ends with the repeated line of ‘that’s my point of view’. So many people have different takes on God and Christianity and religion and what it really means, and it always makes me wonder who, if anyone, has got it right.

When we were on holiday, my mum bought a wee arty plaque for the wall that had a bible quote on it. With it, came two post cards also with verses on them, which I’ve decided are now mine. The pictures of them are below, and I’ll finish this post with them.

“Let the peace of God rule in your hearts” Colossians 3:15

“Be still and know that I am God” Psalm 46:10

it’s a wonderful world





All that i am, all i can be, all that i have, all that is me.

Accept and use Lord, as you would choose Lord right now today

Take every passion, every skill, take all my dreams and bend them to your will

my all i give Lord for you i’ll live Lord come what may”


So as my last post said, I decided to give this writing thing a rest because i’d ran out of decent things to write, and to be honest I got a wee bit freaked out that people would judge me for what I was writing so I thought i’d pack it in. However, i’ve kind of missed it. And i’ve been inspired several times in the past week or so to write, but in particular tonight. (and tbh, who cares what other people think? [well, me… but I like to convince myself that I don’t!!]) Also, this post is going to be a Holy one, so if you’re not into all that, feel free to tune out now 🙂

So the theme of today seems to have been all about the plan for my life, or at least the next chapter in it. Starting with church this morning, where the thing that stuck out for me was a line from a song the songsters (choir) sang, which was something along the lines of

“I surrender my dreams to the plans you have made”

I then came home and spent part of my afternoon staring at my UCAS application. Staring, because i couldn’t bring myself to select the Uni offer i’m going to go for. (I don’t know why…I’ve been decided for weeks which one i’m going for, but officially accepting it makes the whole thing a lot more real! Stay tuned and there may be a follow up post about this later in the week haha!)

Following that, I went to another church service, which was all about whether or not you are ‘fulfilled’, and whether you’re fulfilling God’s plans for your life. It was certainly one of those meetings where you feel like they’re talking directly to you (I both love and hate occasions like that…).

Now these three situations got me thinking a bit, particularly the third one, as one point that was made several times was about opening yourself up to God and his plans, and wholly giving your life to his calling for you. Now, we were encouraged to do this there and then, and to be brutally honest, I really wanted to. I just didn’t know how. I wanted to, because regardless of how confident I am in my faith or not or whether i wanted to open myself to his plans, It seems obvious to me that decisions such as what to do with my life are far too big for me to make on my own. But like I said, i don’t really know how!

People always say you need to ‘listen‘ to what God’s saying to you. Now, i’d like to think listening is one of my stronger personality traits, but listening to God isn’t something i find easy, or particularly know how to do. As i may have mentioned before, I really struggle to believe that it’s ‘God’ talking to me, rather than just me talking to myself in my head. Crazy as that may sound, I struggle with the idea of differentiating between the two. However Jeremiah 29:11 always pops into my head when i’m thinking about stuff like this, and I like the way the Message translation puts it:


” I know what I’m doing. I have it all planned out—plans to take care of you, not abandon you, plans to give you the future you hope for.”

This post was pretty open and honest, and I toyed with the idea of keeping it as a draft or just deleting it altogether. But for some reason it was something i wanted to write. Not because I wanted people to read about the weird confusion going on inside my head when it comes to God, but because writing it down helps me straighten it all out a bit. So really it was for my own benefit, no one else’s. Although if anyone does read it, i’d be interested to hear your thoughts on what i’ve said and what i wrote about, and to hear your take on the subject. 


“Faith is the assurance of things you have hoped for, the absolute conviction that there are realities you’ve never seen”


I received a book for Christmas written by comedian Miranda Hart, entitled “Is it just me?” It’s an autobiography of sorts, but is more just her musings on the trials and more challenging aspects of life in a comic, laugh-at-yourself kind of way. The big and little things, that we (unfortunately) don’t receive a manual for. Full of anecdotes and interjected with conversation between her 38 and 18 year old selves. I found it hilarious, and genuinely laughed out loud on many occasions. But alongside the hilarity there is a sincere, endearing side to what she writes, about accepting and loving who you really are, and about following your dreams. Oh and about embracing your inner child every once in a while. It can’t do any harm can it? I’ve picked out a bit from the last chapter that I love, though no doubt I’ll quote from it again. And if you haven’t read it, I’d certainly recommend it!

“If there’s something you want to do, and you have any kind of basic skill or talent in that direction, please please please… it. Begin. I feel this is the only advice i’m qualified to give – GO FOR IT. Keep plugging away.”
“I hope your dreams have come or will come true. or you feel inspired to down tools on what you wrongly thought was making you happy and follow the real dream”
Miranda Hart

What better advice can you be after? I know it’s not always very straightforward, but taking that advice could certainly be a great starting place…..

“what would you attempt to do if you knew you could not fail?


“Friendship is born at that moment when one person says to another: ‘What?! You too? I thought I was the only one!’
C.S. Lewis

I love that quote, and it sums up quite a few of my friendships, particularly some that have began or simply grown stronger recently. There’s something amazing, in my eyes anyway, about realising you’re not ‘the only one’ who thinks/feels someway about something or another. It stops you feeling alone, and is indeed amazing, comforting, and often oh so relieving (to discover you’re not mad, and if so, there’s more than one of you who is!!)
Thank God for friends, ay?

Friendship…is not something you learn in school. But if you haven’t learned the meaning of friendship, you really haven’t learned anything.”
Muhammad Ali

I can do all things

“what would you try if you knew you could not fail?”

“I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength, but sometimes I wonder what he can do through me.
No great success to show, no glory on our own,
yet in our weakness He is there to let us know..

His strength is perfect when our strength is gone.
He’ll carry us when we can’t carry on,
Raised in his power the weak become strong.
His strength is perfect, his strength is perfect.

We can only know the power that he holds, when we truly see how deep our weakness goes.
His strength in us begins when ours comes to an end,
He hears our humble cry and proves again…

His strength is perfect when our strength is gone.
He’ll carry us when we can’t carry on.
Raised in his power the weak become strong.
His strength is perfect, His strength is perfect.”

I heard this song for the first time about a week and a half ago now, and I literally can’t get it out of my head. It speaks volumes and has seriously got the power to keep you going when you’re struggling. Well God has, and he uses the words in the song to do so.

That verse keeps popping up lately, and it’s a perfect reminder that you’re not on your own.

I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. Philippians 4:13