writer’s block?

So I haven’t written anything in nearly a month, and I don’t really know why. I still don’t really have anything to say so I’ve no idea where this is going to go either, if anywhere….

.. So I wrote that three days ago, and still haven’t managed to come up with anything decent (or even anything at all!) to write. So until I can make sense of what’s going on in my head, I’ll just leave it with a line from a song that popped up on my iPod this morning, cos it’s been stuck in my head all day and is very much true at the moment.

to know you’re there, this is my simple prayer

Quiet

I bought a new book on my Kindle earlier on, called “Quiet: The power of introverts in a world that can’t stop talking.”
It is different to that of the fiction i normally read, but i saw it on the Kindle charts about a week ago and again in a bookshop at the weekend, and something about it made me decide to give it ago.
So far I’ve only read the preface (I’m heading to bed and my brain’s starting to go to sleep!!), but already I’m glad I bought it. In the book, the author (who by the look of things has fairly done her research!!), looks at the differences between ‘introverts’ and ‘extroverts’, and the way ourselves and society view these personality traits. It also looks at the differences between introverted and shy, and the obstacles both these traits can hold.
It’s fair to say this book wouldn’t exactly be everyone’s cup of tea. But as a soon to be psychology student, as well as a quiet natured girl (or introvert? we’ll see if the shoe fits by the time I’ve read the whole book), I’m intrigued to see what the author comes up with, as well as what I will relate to.

I’ll leave you with a quote from the Intro, describing introverts, and quite frankly, I think it describes me pretty well!!

“Introverts, in contrast, may have strong social skills and enjoy parties and business meetings, but after a while wish they were home in their pyjamas. They prefer to devote their social energies to close friends, colleagues, and family. They listen more than they talk, think before they speak, and often feel as if they express themselves better in writing than in conversation. They tend to dislike conflict. Many have a horror of small talk, but enjoy deep discussions. A few things introverts are not: The word introvert is not a synonym for hermit.” Susan Cain

Now it doesn’t exactly describe me word for word (my social skills are somewhat lacking!!) but the line I put in bold sums me up perfectly, and I do indeed hate small talk! So I am indeed looking forward to seeing what the rest of the book holds, and no doubt I will have more posts based on it soon.

“some things are best left unsaid”

Dreams

I received a book for Christmas written by comedian Miranda Hart, entitled “Is it just me?” It’s an autobiography of sorts, but is more just her musings on the trials and more challenging aspects of life in a comic, laugh-at-yourself kind of way. The big and little things, that we (unfortunately) don’t receive a manual for. Full of anecdotes and interjected with conversation between her 38 and 18 year old selves. I found it hilarious, and genuinely laughed out loud on many occasions. But alongside the hilarity there is a sincere, endearing side to what she writes, about accepting and loving who you really are, and about following your dreams. Oh and about embracing your inner child every once in a while. It can’t do any harm can it? I’ve picked out a bit from the last chapter that I love, though no doubt I’ll quote from it again. And if you haven’t read it, I’d certainly recommend it!

“If there’s something you want to do, and you have any kind of basic skill or talent in that direction, please please please…..do it. Begin. I feel this is the only advice i’m qualified to give – GO FOR IT. Keep plugging away.”
“I hope your dreams have come or will come true. or you feel inspired to down tools on what you wrongly thought was making you happy and follow the real dream”
Miranda Hart

What better advice can you be after? I know it’s not always very straightforward, but taking that advice could certainly be a great starting place…..

“what would you attempt to do if you knew you could not fail?

Effort

So I’m disappointed to say I’ve got to that stage in life where I’m a tad heavier than I’d like to be, and have decided I need to do something before I really really don’t like what I see. I’m hardly obese, but you know there’s a weight/size/width that everyone hits where they no longer feel the size they’re supposed to? Be it too big or too small, you just don’t feel comfortable being you in that form. Well I’ve hit it.
Now don’t worry, I’m not doing anything drastic. Just more exercise (who am I kidding – I mean I’ll start doing exercise..it’s not like I do any at the minute!!), more water, less crappy junk food, and a healthier diet. Sounds straightforward doesn’t it? (we’ll see how long it lasts before I’m ‘starving’ and back on the donuts though [I’m worse than Homer Simpson….]..).
It’s been annoying me for a while now, but there’s no point just complaining about it. As much as I’d like to click my fingers and loose half a stone and some flab off my belly and thighs, it’s just not going to happen. So I need to stop being lazy and put some effort in. I could quite easily just moan about having put on weight, and if i let myself go back to my old negative mindset then i will, but it’ll get me nowhere. There’s no point being unhappy with who you are if you’re not willing to put in any effort to change it! So that’s exactly what I’m going to do!! (or what I’m planning to do……..)

I guess that same attitude can be used for most aspects of your life. If you’re not happy with something that’s in your control, then do something about it and change it. It’s pointless being miserable when you could make the effort to improve things. So,

don’t worry, be happy!