never,never,never give up
So this post is going to be a bit of a catch up on where my life’s at just now.
I’ll start off with work shall I? Well I resigned from Primark in December after working there for 18 months, and actually when it finally came down to it, I was slightly sad to be leaving! (although delighted to have my weekends back, and to not have to tidy sunglasses or sale stands again!!) I’m now a Checkouts Customer Assistant in a brand new Tesco Metro store in Glasgow, and I’m loving it! I’ve got fantastic shifts, (no early mornings, late nights or weekends..result!!), the staff are all really nice, and I’m loving getting to meet and chat to so many different customers. It sounds so basic, but particularly with some of the more elderly customers, it’s a great feeling when they’re truly appreciative for your help and a quick chat, and it’s nice to think you might have made even the smallest positive impact on someone’s day. (cheesy or what?!)
Topic 2 – Studying.
So I think in my last update, I’d just ‘voluntarily suspended’ my Business Degree at Strathy, and was frantically trying to decide where to go next. Well, after months of stressing and deliberating over what I’d be good at and more importantly, what I’d enjoy, I came to a conclusion. So in January I sent away my UCAS application, applying for MA’s in Psychology at various University’s in Scotland’s Central belt. So far, I’m delighted to say I have two unconditional offers to study at Glasgow Uni (Psychology, and Psychology & Sociology), which I am over the moon about! So now just to wait and see what the other uni’s say, before I’m back to having to make more decisions about which to choose and whether to stay at home or not etc. etc. It wasn’t an easy decision to know what to apply for, but I think this bit of my personal statement explains in pretty well(even if a bit cheesy!)
“They involve studying people of the past, people from different cultures, and people’s minds. I was and continue to be captivated by the insights these different social sciences give into individuals’ behaviour and how much we are influenced by society and the culture we live in. I am eager to study psychology in a deeper context as I am intrigued and challenged by the concept of why people do what they do. From heroes to criminals, everyone has a reason for what they do, whether they are aware of it or not.”
So yeah, look out world, i’ll be assessing you all soon haha! But yeah overall, things are on the right track, and I couldn’t be happier.
Topic 3 – God.
This has always been a tricky topic for me to talk about, as I’m never quite sure how to put my thoughts on it all into words. I know there’s a God, and I know fine well that he’s a major part of my life. But despite the often overwhelming evidence that he does exist, and he has complete control over our lives, keeping us safe and on what is probably a pretty awesome plan for our lives, it can also be far too easy (for me anyway) to doubt the whole thing completely. I’ve always been someone who worries and doubts things, always looking for the negatives instead of the positives, so it’s all too often very easy for my brain to decide that it can’t be right. I’d been struggling a bit over the past year, and something someone (who has turned out to be a pretty massive influence on my life in recent months, though I’m sure they’re none the wiser!) said to me at music school last year has really stuck. We’d been talking how sometimes I can’t help thinking I’m making it all up because I like the idea of it.. that when I’m praying I’m really just talking to myself in my head. And the thing she said yet has really helped. She quoted a song called Blessed be the name, but in particular “My heart will choose to say”. So basically I have to start living by believing that all the God stuff is real before it’ll really fall into place. And it has. Without wanting to sound like a total religious nut, it’s so much easier to see all the amazing things God’s doing in your life when you’re not trying to block out the fact he’s there! So yeah that’s where I’m at with that I guess!
Topic 4 – Friends.
I’ve realised lately just how lucky I am. (I know, full of the cheesiness tonight.) But really, I am. I have so many amazing people in my life – all amazing in their own unique, equally crazy ways. I always used to long for that one ‘best friend’, but recently I’ve come to realise that I have several who mean the world to me, and as some of us start to move in different directions, I’m realising just how much I love having them in my life. We have so much fun, yet are always there to support each other when times aren’t quite so fun. And I’d have struggled a lot more this past year if it wasn’t for the support, reassurance, and love of some of these people. I really, truly hope they know who they are and how much they mean to me.
Topic 5 – the love of my life
Could this get any cheesier? Really? There’s not much i need to say on this one, other than i’m in love! Things were tough for a while, there’s no denying it. But after 4 years, 6 months and 13 days, (and minutes away from valentines day!) I can honestly say I am completely in love with Matthew. We’ve had so many amazing memories so far, and so many more to come (bring on California in june!!!!), and i’m such a happy, lucky girl. Good times indeed!
Anyway, enough of this cheesefest, I realise that ‘catch up’ was longer than your average school essay, and that probably not even one person will read it all (if any!!) but I was in the mood for writing and sharing just how great my life is right at this moment.
Go confidently in the direction of your dreams! Live the life you’ve imagined. Thoreau.