All that i am, all i can be, all that i have, all that is me.

Accept and use Lord, as you would choose Lord right now today

Take every passion, every skill, take all my dreams and bend them to your will

my all i give Lord for you i’ll live Lord come what may”


So as my last post said, I decided to give this writing thing a rest because i’d ran out of decent things to write, and to be honest I got a wee bit freaked out that people would judge me for what I was writing so I thought i’d pack it in. However, i’ve kind of missed it. And i’ve been inspired several times in the past week or so to write, but in particular tonight. (and tbh, who cares what other people think? [well, me… but I like to convince myself that I don’t!!]) Also, this post is going to be a Holy one, so if you’re not into all that, feel free to tune out now 🙂

So the theme of today seems to have been all about the plan for my life, or at least the next chapter in it. Starting with church this morning, where the thing that stuck out for me was a line from a song the songsters (choir) sang, which was something along the lines of

“I surrender my dreams to the plans you have made”

I then came home and spent part of my afternoon staring at my UCAS application. Staring, because i couldn’t bring myself to select the Uni offer i’m going to go for. (I don’t know why…I’ve been decided for weeks which one i’m going for, but officially accepting it makes the whole thing a lot more real! Stay tuned and there may be a follow up post about this later in the week haha!)

Following that, I went to another church service, which was all about whether or not you are ‘fulfilled’, and whether you’re fulfilling God’s plans for your life. It was certainly one of those meetings where you feel like they’re talking directly to you (I both love and hate occasions like that…).

Now these three situations got me thinking a bit, particularly the third one, as one point that was made several times was about opening yourself up to God and his plans, and wholly giving your life to his calling for you. Now, we were encouraged to do this there and then, and to be brutally honest, I really wanted to. I just didn’t know how. I wanted to, because regardless of how confident I am in my faith or not or whether i wanted to open myself to his plans, It seems obvious to me that decisions such as what to do with my life are far too big for me to make on my own. But like I said, i don’t really know how!

People always say you need to ‘listen‘ to what God’s saying to you. Now, i’d like to think listening is one of my stronger personality traits, but listening to God isn’t something i find easy, or particularly know how to do. As i may have mentioned before, I really struggle to believe that it’s ‘God’ talking to me, rather than just me talking to myself in my head. Crazy as that may sound, I struggle with the idea of differentiating between the two. However Jeremiah 29:11 always pops into my head when i’m thinking about stuff like this, and I like the way the Message translation puts it:


” I know what I’m doing. I have it all planned out—plans to take care of you, not abandon you, plans to give you the future you hope for.”

This post was pretty open and honest, and I toyed with the idea of keeping it as a draft or just deleting it altogether. But for some reason it was something i wanted to write. Not because I wanted people to read about the weird confusion going on inside my head when it comes to God, but because writing it down helps me straighten it all out a bit. So really it was for my own benefit, no one else’s. Although if anyone does read it, i’d be interested to hear your thoughts on what i’ve said and what i wrote about, and to hear your take on the subject. 


“Faith is the assurance of things you have hoped for, the absolute conviction that there are realities you’ve never seen”


One thought on “Fulfilled

  1. Hey, so you said in your post that you were interested to hear other people’s take on what you said/written therefor I figured I’d write a wee reply:)
    You said you struggle to differentiate between your own thoughts and what God might be trying to tell you… Well whenever I feel like Gods trying to tell me something it tends to be through some kind of sign, like one Sunday I went to the mercy seat to ask God whether or not I should offer myself as depute songster leader. While I was kneeling there praying, Jen Clement who was songster leader at the time came to the mercy seat too. I saw that as a sign that she was obviously in need of some help in some aspect of her life, so after the meeting I offered to help out. Now it didn’t last long as things changed and it meant I was needed elsewhere but it gave me an experience that has helped me to have the confidence to stand in front of a group of people and instruct them on how I want them to perform a piece of music.
    Things do happen for a reason, it may be long winded but you’ll see the results at some point 🙂


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